urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke gooey loui gooey loui 2004-04-24T19:23:51Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:7539 2004-04-24T19:23:51Z 2004-04-24T19:23:51Z well i havent used lj in a very long time...i woke up this mornin and decided...i should use it...so here its is....<br />ive been thinkin alot lately on how much of a loser i am..its cool tho...i can deal with it....i also been thinking about all the people i miss...like all the milwaukee palyas..and detriot,and florida... i havent been up to milwaukee in a long ime...i wanna see everyone....i dont want to live the way i do anymore really...im sick of bein poor..and sick of not haveing a home...if any one has any suggetions...please let me know...or if you have a house i can stay at in the area....well i love all my friends...and i really hope that i am loved by them......there are people i wish to be on better terms with...there are people i wnna fuck....there are people i wanna get fucked up with....i want a change...<br />HELP ME MAKE IT.......PLEASE<br /><br />ANY FRIENDS WHO READ THIS I WOULD APPRECIATE SOME REPLIES ON HOW TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:7193 2003-10-20T08:36:44Z 2003-10-20T08:36:44Z well things are shitty...but what ever..ive been in some sort of daze..a second world kinda..just wondering around,not knowing what im doing or what i will be doing...<br />problems<br />nomoney<br />nofamily<br />nohome<br />nomemory<br />norespect<br />nolife<br />what is the number for ....restoration????<br />lots o shwag...come getit urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:7129 2003-09-10T22:26:09Z 2003-09-10T23:35:10Z IF ANYONE IS WOUNDERING WHAT THIS IS ABOUT....THESE TWO STUPID SLUTS , AMBUSHED BRUCE ,TIED HIM UP AND CARVED SHIT IN HIS CHEST WITH A KNIFE...YES BRUCE FUCKED UP ...BUT HE DID NOT DESERVE THAT <br />FUCK YOU STUPID BITCHES,AND YOR FUCKING KENOSHA KILL CREW OR WHAT EVER..<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />AND THIS IS ALL TRUE urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:6844 2003-08-17T06:25:18Z 2003-08-17T06:25:18Z so today i let myt heart out to a certian person who meaNT ALOT TO ME, AND TOLD THEM EVERY THING IVE LIED ABOUT, AND EVERY THING IVE DID THAT I WASNT SUPPOSE TO....AND AS I EXPECTED I AM NOW A DUMPED ,STUPID,FUCK UP, NOT TO METION SCUMBAG....IM SORRY I WASTED 2 YEARS OF YOUR LIFE AND IM SORRY I AM NOT TYE RIGHT BOY FER YOU...I DO LOVE YOU VERY MUCH ....YOU PROLY DONT BELIEVE ME BUT I DO...HAVE A NICE YEAR IN GERMANY ,I HOPE ITS FUN , AND I ALSO HOPE YOU FIND SOME ONE WHO WILL TREAT YOU LIKE YOU SHOULD BE TREATED..YOU ARE ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THATS EVER HAPPENED TO ME, AND YOU HAVE CHANGED MY LIFE...AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEBER YOU...AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEBER THE GOOD TIMES...AND REMEBER YOU AS MY FIRST TRUE LOVE THAT I LOST...BECAUSE OF STUPIDITY...<br />I LOVE YOU urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:6445 2003-05-31T06:37:20Z 2003-05-31T06:37:20Z i sooo sick it sucks, i been coughing all day...and drinking dayquill ...i went to adriells show to nite it was awsome , got to see HEWHOCURRUPTS for the second time in about 2 weeks, and they were fucking amazing, and i got a free shirt from them...oh and i also hung out with the three most beautiful gurls i know ... and they all loooked great tonite....thanks fer handleing merch ladies urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:6282 2003-05-28T19:31:16Z 2003-05-28T19:31:16Z so my life falls apart slowly ,and i dont know what to do, or how to feel i just sit , blank,thinking of what i should do , im soo lost, what should i do,what is best fer me, why do i feel like im beside my self looking at me.....its uncontrolable, im a zombie, nothing i do makes me happy or anyone else, i am just a burdon to the people i love.......and fuck my family , what kind of family disowns their son. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:6093 2003-05-06T06:48:54Z 2003-05-06T06:48:54Z sooo high to night 3 joints and way to many bowls to count........... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:5669 2003-05-04T19:45:47Z 2003-05-04T19:45:47Z so im always tryin to figure out why people are soo stingy, its just like they want everything fer them selfs and they cant share even the slightest bit of any thing... but the most irritating is people that are bogus about their pot, well news flash kids, WEED IS FOR SHARING, and if you dont share ,you aint no real pothead, cause REALL POTHEADS know that your not supposed to be a tight wad about weed...specialy with people that are suppose to be your friends...... fuck all ya'll non sharin bitches...see if u get any of mines...you prolly will cause i know whats up...im for real and ya'll just some punk ass bitches...and im sorry that i didnt come to the show last night... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:5462 2003-05-04T02:19:55Z 2003-05-04T02:19:55Z i shaverd my beard off, i look 5 years younger... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:5130 2003-04-28T06:14:25Z 2003-04-28T06:14:25Z so igot arrested for hop lifting, they got me on camera and followed me out...i stole two fucking luna bars and their acting like i robbed the fucking store...any how i go down to the station...the cops like "what we're you hungry or something"...duh you fucking pig why else wouldf i steal if i wasnt hungry...fucking bacon urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:5012 2003-04-27T09:11:05Z 2003-04-27T09:11:05Z i think i take everything for granted,like my girlfriend most of all, for some reason i dont relize how much she does for me..and cares for me...i just dont know how i miss it all. Im not the greatest boyfriend in the world but i have a big heart, and sometimes im a dick, but i can be a sweetheart most of the time,i just need some weed and im alll good... but any how i love you kristin and i hope you know it...im proud to be yo man baby...<br /><br />ps im moving back to illinios soon ..me and bruce in his parents basment, all i have to say is food and clean... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:4812 2003-04-21T20:23:47Z 2003-04-21T20:23:47Z so i havent posted in awhile ,and thats because there isnt much for me to write, my life at this point in time is very boring, i am poor ,hungry and i need a job, and i also need to look fer one, im so lazy in mil. it makes me feel like a loser, which i am becomimg, no job , no money ,no ambition,no family , no life........yep... so there is only 2 things that makes me wanna stay around this area in general, and that is my friends and my lovely girlfriend......other wise i would move away to some where warm and tropical. man everyone is lucky that i have friends and a g/f , or they wouldnt have the pleasure of knowing such a fucking fuck up like me.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:4461 2003-04-05T23:50:37Z 2003-04-05T23:50:37Z so im in florida ,justin,ryan,matt, and alex left and we stayed ,so we can hang out and go to this huge party...my friens\ds piss me off, i mean if half of us wanted to stay then all of us should have, i think its pretty dumb that they just left us, cause they didnt want to be in florida.......bitch ass motha fuckers.......any way i miss kristin and i cant wait to see her. this tour was fun but i think it failed at being great... but whatever, well i think well be back monday so ill see everyone then... i miss every one that is worth missing.....you know who you are......peace urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:4202 2003-03-30T20:24:04Z 2003-03-30T20:24:04Z so we're all excited after the first show, stoned ,and happy, i fall asleep ,wake up and we suck.... broken down in ohio.... we sat in the van for 10 hours or something, letting the suck soak into my head while every one else is sleeping the pain off,really sucked cause i just sat there feeling so shitty,by my self...i felt so over whelmed by every thing ,i was on the verge of cry,seriously crying all day, this tour is something ive been looking foward too,waiting for, for so long,and then to wake up and find out its over after only one show, crushed me...BUT we dont give up that easy, we are going to fish the rest of the tour we missed 2 shows but thats ok, the best shows have yet to come, i cant wait till we get down to florida , we are now taking two cars and we are all going,me ryan and chris too, so we will finish this tour and we will do what we planned to do , even if it kills us... we are the greatest group of people ,known to man kind... and we will over come any obstacles in our way.stupid van... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:3943 2003-03-28T15:14:31Z 2003-03-28T15:14:31Z We leave today as soon asd brian gets out of school, it is going to be a tight fit but its all good , we been in tight fits together before..........but i want all my friends that are staying here to know, i love them, and kristin I LOVE YOU SOOOOOOO MUCH BABE, ill see you when i get back. wish us luck and if i die i leave all my stuff(nothing) to YOU...take care every one and remember me as the man of little words................because i didnt learn them all when i was a kid.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:3802 2003-03-27T18:45:29Z 2003-03-27T18:45:29Z so the day after today which will be ,uhhh friday, we will be on our way to start this fucking amazing tour, i feel so good because adriell pretty much bases every thing around me, i got a song , a shirt, flyers, and i get to come on tour, no ?'s asked. its gonna be great because we all are such good friends and i know that when we get back we will proly hate each other for like a day, but then you know what it will go back to the way it was.. and you know why that is ....cause we're boys. If we were girls proly only half of us would come back,due to the stopping in the middle of nowhere opening the van and throwing the bitch or what ever out by her hair... but no were boys.. so we'll make pissy faces say some shit we dont mean, puch a seat or something ,and then poof back to normal. shit i cant wait to get down to florida, HEY YOU FLORIDA ASSHOLES YOU HERE THAT... YOU GUYS BETTER HAVE BEER AND WEED WAITING FOR ME , OH AND A RED CARPET AS SOON AS WE PULL UP... i wanna see kegs motherfuckers,and joints the size of justins gerthy ass penis, cause we gonna get fucked up, shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:3487 2003-03-25T03:51:41Z 2003-03-25T03:51:41Z sooo today i had a talk with kristins mom, and i told her that i really hated going to school, and one of the rules of living here is i have to go to school, i told her i proly wouldnt finish the semester,and that school was just too much stress in my life, plus the fact thta i dont do anything or wantto, so it pointless, and the only reason i go is to make kristin happy but truthfully im not happy,its not living with kristin that makes me un happy its having to go to school and the expectaions thta go with it, her mom said i shouldnt do something i dont want too, and that kristin would get over it,but she woont, and if i do ,do this not going to school thing i have to find a place to stay. this really sucks cause i have no where else togo, even mil. is kinda outta the ? cause the mustashe house is full, and im sure they dont want me around + the other million peopple that live tehre, so im kinda fucked maybe ill move to las vegas and drop every thing, i really dont know waht to do, should i stay or should i go, AM I COMING OR GOING... these things i do not know.. if anyone has suggestions orwill be nice enough to let me kick it at there crib, i would appreciate it, im a good house guest ,i pretty much do what ever im told too,and im getting a job...somehow... i need to get my feet on the ground cause it sucks being 20 stories up,and being scared of hights.. i need to do something tho..anyhow my life sucks, id like to thank all my friends for helpping me or justbeing there, thanks to everyone who came to my b-day show, and fuck any one who didnt know it was for me... but anyhow i love all my friends ,u are my family since ive been dissowned by mine...thank you.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:3172 2003-03-24T18:41:39Z 2003-03-24T18:41:39Z so sat. went well my friends came they saw and theleft, but aron smoked me up and i went and got drunk in mil. wich was really boring... but what ever...sorry i didnt come with you instead kristin...peace..and fuck this stupid ass war urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:2995 2003-03-22T22:39:52Z 2003-03-22T22:39:52Z so yesterday was my birthday and it was nice, kristin took me out to dinner and then i hung out with some friends and got drizzy,everyone passed out so i drank by my self, pussy ass bitches,cnat handle their shit...and today is my b-day show at mikes, so that should be fun..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:2806 2003-03-19T02:00:38Z 2003-03-19T02:00:38Z so i live with kristin now,and its goin ok, i just have to to my home work before i can go play with my friends..... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:2505 2003-03-12T03:42:21Z 2003-03-12T03:42:21Z oh yeah love the fliers guys, dont i need to sign a contract or something for you to use my pic... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:2126 2003-03-12T03:37:40Z 2003-03-12T03:37:40Z so today i went and got my chipped tooth fixed , it looks great, just like new, i bet you cant wait to see it....moulies! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:1953 2003-03-06T04:25:03Z 2003-03-06T04:25:03Z so .steal to survive is for sure the best way to go and im not paying taxes there for not funding bushes war, my life sucks now but i think it can get better. i just need to do some spring cleaning on my brain...but i need some cleaning supplies. so if any one can help on that ,hook it up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:1603 2003-03-05T21:57:44Z 2003-03-05T21:57:44Z fuck you all urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:loui_goat_fucke:1381 2003-03-05T01:43:03Z 2003-03-05T01:43:03Z ok swo i have no idea what to do with my life, i got kicked out of my house , over some dumb shit, i have no place to stay reall, my grandma is really sick and she might die, my girlfriend is trying to help me , but doesnt understand my situation, i just dont want any bosses or people to tell me what i can and cant do rigfht now, i just need my space. i have no money no food and nothing else really, only my freinds. i dont care about going to school, it will just make my situation worse, i think ill go back and get my ged which i heard is really easy and takes alot less time..<br />i dont know what to do or where to stay, i dont want to burden anyone. shit i wish things were different but there not, andd now i have to figure out what i should do. my life is a living hell right now, im not looking forward to the next year and a half at all. everything is goin down the toilet all at once......<br />i guess ill stop now ,this just turned into one of those stupid long post none will read.